Yikes

What can you do? Try as we might, things tend to be circular. When things do come full circle in a plot of a story it is almost predictable. It’s the plot twist that gets us. Didn’t see that coming, and you reveal in the mystery and surprise that smacks you in the face! In real life, annoying! Pisses me off actually. I tend to be orderly and a plan kinda girl. Previously my reaction is stick my head in the sand. More often lately is anger. I am done with plot twists.

The self guided life, the rebel, the girl that grew up to be fiercely independent is so done. It took a long to become me. I don’t like change. I don’t like regret, criticism, having my way controlled. Not sure how to put the fire out.

Live by example… hmmm. There is controversy at every turn. I turn off the news. I stop getting the paper, I block and delete. I stick to those I know. My circle is small, but the world keeps putting it’s nose in my life. Trying to block my happy!

I keep putting my best foot forward and someone keeps stepping on my damn feet! I will not turn off the switch anymore, I am back! I control me. I am responsible for me. Tired of standing back and watching people crumble. Tired of fear. Tired of all of it.

Need me, tell me. Reach out, don’t be alone. Don’t let this, whatever your “this” is take from you and yours! We have got this! We are stronger, taller, more resilient, this is our beginning!