Cold

We’ll weather, the weather, whatever the weather, whether we like it or not. Minus forty six with the windchill, I’d rather not. It is business as usual, praying that it will be spring when this is over! I am cold right now, I have one child floating in the Caribbean, and one just texted to say the power is out! Too cold for that! I have fallen asleep twice today, I am in full hibernation mode! Really this winter has been kind until now. Stores were half full this morning during errands. Not a soul outdoors, nor should there be!

It is a new day today, it is amazing what a shower, a breakfast made by my husband, and eating with my two men this morning does. I am sitting in front of my Happy Light now, might need sunglasses and I am laughing at the absurdity of it. I can hear my husband and son playing Yahtzee, my son is winning apparently, according to the shouts. My husband is so competitive I am surprised he doesn’t cheat. He would just have to tell my son that his roll was nothing. I can tell he hates to tell him when he gets Yahtzee! They enjoy it even if my son does win! Who knew that Yahtzee would be the game of choice for the blind, so much more of a game of chance when you have to trust your apponent to tell you what you have rolled. This winter is different, one that was built to tear us to shreds, has changed us to depend on each other so much more. Learned a lot about myself, and I am not invincible, I do need others for my survival, who knew..

Just control what you can, coping skills kick in, you can do this. Our space is always going to be invaded about the outside world, you can’t block everything. No one else can feel your feelings. You have to let others in and help. I always say, “Ask for cookies” and the most important part of that is….take the cookies. We can help ourselves, sure we can! Sorry to say, you have to admit… I need you! It is not a fault to need someone. Someone that shelters you, or covers you a little bit from some of the stuff coming down on you. At the very least listens, all the things you need to say out loud, even the things you don’t want to hear come out of your own mouth. Don’t give up, and if you are someone’s someone, don’t let them give up on themselves. We have a lot to learn and we are worth it and we are here to stay.