Silence

I like quiet, see inside my day and the noise is deafening! So how do I drown it out? Essentially that is what I do, a repetitive scrape or click can make me nuts, but ruckus and large and long noise can be absorbed and forgotten. Sudden noises always scare me! On one hand I seem to have bad nerves, then the next I can go for the long haul in chaos. I have a friend that can not stand the quiet. It makes her uncomfortable. Many people sitting together not speaking feels awkward to her, I am quite comfortable there. I see no problem with people sharing parallel space in calm silence. You can feel energy in this space, you can feel emotions stronger. Maybe that is why reading it so much more than a movie, you read it in silence, you bond with characters, you inhale the mood of the story. I have been driven to heavy, ugly crying while reading faster then any show! I still cry watching movies, but it feels like, you just have to look away to avoid the emotions. I have some people in my circle that hate those parts and will do something loud and outrageous so they can disassociate from the sad scene. When the tough gets going, they just get out of there.

I don’t understand the loud. When not in a group setting, it is nails on a chalk board, grating! I would pay attention to someone faster with grandiose movements than the shrilly, commanding noise. If everyone was a mime, that is my kind of attention seeking that I could respond to. A public settings, a restaurant or salon with someone speaking to someone beside them about the fight at the club or the recent bout of flu in their home for everyone to hear, I don’t get it. I probably shouldn’t know that much about a stranger. It seems to be open season for respond to strangers. I even notice in the classroom kids calling out during a short animation on the screen. I couldn’t imagine what they would be like at a movie. People are not private anymore, adds dimension I guess.

Public debates are also the norm, I have observed more weigh ins from random people than before. Even caught myself! I don’t like that, being invited into a conversation is far better. I don’t know what healthy arguments are, that definition has changed with the rest of it. Last man standing after being shamed from your opinion, seems to be the new normal. A group of friends were talking about cyber bullying, but if their children carry on like they do, well nothing is going to help! Be kind all the time, all we can hope for until some kind of unwritten guidelines are established. I try not to be so surprised with these changes, but just when you get use to one thing it evolves again. We got one different kind of generation coming up, the technological advances will be huge. Just want to be sure we keep our humanity!