Hiatus

If you can, stand back and take it all in. If your breath hasn’t reached your navel in a while, get a nice fresh deep breath. I’ve kinda been whatever lately. No deadlines, take off the pressure of life. You may not accomplish much in this mode, but this isn’t the olympics. There is no gold medal, as a matter of fact, not even a sticker. You exist, Amen.

I have been the most laid back and disorganized I have ever been. That is okay, I straightened a table today, and didn’t obsess over how straight it was. Come what may, no worries. No fevered planning, just day by day, toes in the water approach. Feels good. Fall is wrapping up, winter is arriving. I am safe, I am comfortable. What else matters? Family is fabulous, bed is comfy. I have everything I need. I did have no coffee one morning and I survived.

No tree up yet, no lists, just waking to my feelings and doing what the day directs. I can not believe it is December! 2024 will be here soon enough, ready or not. Numbers are after all, are just numbers. My inner voice is calm, I am not reciting every move I make out loud like I am gonna forget what I am doing. I create my own pressure sometimes. It is a good realization. I believe everything is a choice. I didn’t consider that my own choices may push me a bit too much. I will find the balance in this new road to blend with my old road and be a little more lax and enjoy it. Put on something cute and soft and just let it all fall away for a bit. There is so much you don’t control, really that is okay.