Insert insanely long sigh….I need a reset button. I don’t know what has to reset, but whoa I seem to have hit a wall. I feel like I am on a survival show ready to tap out or get voted off. I don’t know if it’s the weather, time, moon, temperature? It’s like a false start to a race and my early take off has me depleted before everyone else. Helpless, hopeless, a child said to me today, “Your hair is all sticking up.” Good to know it shows too. I need a team to fix me right now, and I can’t articulate what I need, because I have no sweet clue. Thus the need for a reset.
I keep going though, pulling from somewhere bigger than I know. Maybe it is a hard reset…like a phone, do an update, shut down and restart. Control, alt, delete, something like that. I need some sleep and I have been sleeping! I actually came home one day and hubby sent me to bed, and I still slept that night. It has to be the wonky weather, all four seasons in a week. It is hard on the head. I have had on a parka, hat, mitts and winter boots one day and rain gear another to short sleeves all in this week. That messes with something, I am sure. Maybe picking a season, will help picking an emotion. Regulating the temperature might regulate the mood. Maybe this is why bears are angry when they come out of hibernation. That and hunger, I have been starving!
I’ll figure it out, I always do. I will keep doing self care, feels like self preservation. Maybe this weekend I will just eat and sleep until I feel normal. Not sure how I can feel overwhelmed and lazy at the same time. I look around and I am pretty sure I am not the only one with this internal fizzle right now. Happy spring or third winter or whatever this is? I am hopeful that I can put away a coat this week, that I don’t have to dig out again!
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