High Standards

I am not perfect, but I expect to be. No one will ever judge me as hard as I judge myself. I do not like to be wrong, I don’t like can’t. I am more of a I won’t and do what I want kinda gal. I like to do things myself, so I can say I did it, by myself, I didn’t need any help. I also like when someone does for me without asking. Not in a bossy way but a mind reader way, and of course is totally unrealistic. On the flip side of that, I like to do for others before they ask, predicting needs so I am not told what to do. This is a huge discovery for me. Pretty unreasonable to maintain and probably a little bit of an only child thing.

It shows me why I am stubborn, I only had to answer to me. It explains my mini started projects. They get hard, I move on until I problem solve, then go back when I have figured it out. This is fine independently but start to finish people stay with things until it is done all in one sitting. The procrastination I used to suffer with forever was more fear inspired. If I didn’t begin something hard, I wouldn’t have to feel failure and guilt for making my way through it on my terms. It doesn’t bother me to work at a task for fifteen minutes, leave it, go on to something else finish them both over several days rotating back and forth until done. Works for me and curbs the procrastination.

It is funny how self discovery continues all through your life. Just like the ability to make changes throughout that time. We are malleable at any age. I always seem to be surprised by that. I see it in others, and only after self reflection do I discover mine. One of the principle themes that helped me create this blog was asking for cookies. I ran into the person that taught me that the other day. Such a delight, brought it all back, triggered this whole journey. It reminded me, mind readers cannot happen. It is you! What kind of cookie do you need? Don’t make people guess, pick the one you want, the recipe and the ingredients if you need to. Ask for exactly what you want or need!