
Sometimes growth has to happen without our acknowledgment. You come through something to the other side of it before you realize the lesson. We can be so involved in a task that you become lost in it. Hyper focused and vigilant, no tomorrows, just today. When it is over you realize the loss and quite often the gains. How something makes you feel isnβt felt until it is done. I am not sure how we become so immersed in something that we are not even cognizant of the effects. When the outcome is good, we rejoice, if the outcome is negative we mourn, lick our wounds and move on.
We age and we are still pliable, we are still creating a mould of who we will become. We may see it in others before we recognize it in ourselves. I catch myself thinking, I never used to think, act, have beliefs like this before. Evolving to a better person is subtle, seeing someone grow into a better version is a celebration. We can be part of that, we can have a hand in it. If you have grown a tiny human and they do things that are strong and insightful even if it is different than us we silently cheer. If you have friends that struggle and you see them step out of that space we carry a knowing smile. If people are constantly plotting against each other, they are not your people.
I have been shuffling through memories this year. Weeding out the old and inserting the better. This process can be harrowing and even draining. Get it right with yourself and the rest falls into place. Forget what you can not change. You do not need to live there, it is expensive for it to take up valuable real estate in your mind. Send in an eviction notice and clear those dusty spaces for something better. The full moon of June is over, go towards summer with all the positive vibes you can muster π