I will take the spring that has arrived. Rain, sleet, ice , whatever. My body knows better days are coming. Up early, but sleeping through the night. So productive, an imaginary rope pulling through every obstacle. I am not stuck, I am not plagued by indecision, answers arrive without coaxing. Silver linings instead of expecting the plague or poor outcomes. They still happen, but it is a skipped step instead of the steel door that slams in the winter. I noticed on my phone app I am up an extra three thousand steps a day and I am not walking. I even have been out of the house and off to see others. Hibernation is officially over.
Today I was spring cleaning, you know the gritty stuff, screens, heating vents, tops of cupboards, ceiling fans because I want to. I want to is the key, there has been a lot of don’t want to months. For those that made me, or got me out during those stale days… you have no idea how much I need it and I don’t know either until hind sight hits. Winter wasn’t bad this year, I always say that afterwards. I mean my Cuba trip was cancelled so no down south for me this year and I survived. All my family lives away now, so if I want to see them, I gotta go. I am pretty sure every appointment I had was in some crap weather, and again I did it. Sometimes I nod off after supper or hit the hay super early, but I can go with that flow.
I went to see the plants at the store, way too early for this province. The smell of earth and all the growing things inspire something close to Christmas. Two of my house plants have died this past month, I think they had seasonal depression. Waiting for the sun is hard. Tomorrow is suppose to be filled with sun, maybe I will lie on the grass. My granddaughter is south right now and she sends me snaps of the beautiful weather she is enjoying, I feel it baby girl! Send more! Take your time weekend I want to roll in this freedom a little longer!
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