I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a thousand times. Everything we do has a choice. Do we make the right choice every time? Probably not, some decisions are not that easy. Should you buy the brand name or not? Should you even be shopping? In every life we have big decisions, another baby? A big move, when to retire, getting married, the list is endless. We have to decide what our motivator is. Are we basing decisions to appease others? I hope not, you live with your decisions. I remember a highly regarded television therapist saying to a couple, “ You wanna be right? Or you wanna be married?”

Numero uno is the one that matters, that is the person to keep happy, at the end of the day, your decisions impact you. You live with them, when everything else falls away and the voices quiet, what will help you sleep at night. Delaying a decision is okay too. Today may not be the day to decide. Process, weighing the impact, gauging the risks are all very important. For those important things, take your time. There will always be what ifs, there will be a point of no return. Sometimes you may get to change your mind.

Don’t beat yourself up over wrong decisions. What’s done is done. That is what life is, live and learn. For most, it is the hard way. Just like kids there is no manual, life doesn’t have one either. Trial and error, a thousand advisors, worse case scenarios. A perfect plan can still go awry. I don’t think any decision has left me completely settled in my own judgement. I am happy, I am safe and I am still here. Hindsight will always be 20/20. Being certain is the end of the rainbow, the dream you will always chase. Just live, just breathe!

My compass is way off, I have no clue if I’m coming or going. I have heard the geese, but not seen the huge return. I have no clue what the weather is doing, it’s all a bit of a shambles. I find I have had a mind shift once again. Perception is ever changing, and this is good, growth is always good. Life is a Pandora’s box filled with trinkets and surprises you never really see coming. I still myself and let go of worry, get rid of foreboding, but stuff still happens, perhaps it always will.

Earth is hard mode, oh yes friends I like that. If we were in a game, and set the level of difficulty I sure would choose the easy mode. Life is navigation, like a book there is conflict and resolution. Our chapters are long. Some are thick with character development. Some are dry with drawn out story lines that seem meaningless. Our stories are not rushed, or at least they shouldn’t be. We need to savour our days, even the bad ones, a message or lesson is in there.

Not everyone gets a happy ending or a chance to say, “The end.” You get what you get, or of late, the more common phrase we have been using, “It is, what it is.” You can not control everything and you have to be okay with that. Letting go of things is one of the biggest things we need to learn. We also need to understand that it doesn’t equate easy for everyone. Do the best you can. The best you can, can never be taken from you.

Oh my the stories we can tell eh? You ever give yourself to the game? Life game, volleyball, soccer, hockey? You give 900% everyday and then you get an injury, you’re out, you are down.. but you wanna play. You love it so much you want to play!! Accommodations can be made, they are available to you. They give you the handicap, the one up, the assistance to play with/ for your passion.

We are talking about the ones that are up early 5:30 to practice, play the game and stay until 8 to practice some more. During the game, you go the extra mile almost a thousand miles! There is always that almost moment, so close to that extra point, the goal line, the shot you miss. Why does the focus turn to that? Why do you beat yourself up over that? Why is it what everyone talks about? You give and give, you are an example to others, but people look for flaws!

I think people resent those that do well. They see the success and drive as a threat, maybe because they don’t have it? Maybe because someone being happy or passionate about seemingly ordinary things is unusual? Don’t poo poo on someone’s parade. Kids love to change the rules of the game, when they are losing. Some grown ups are children. When the game changes suddenly, when it feels like sabotage, don’t look within. It is not you, you keep your passion! I could tell you what Momma wouldn’t say…

The time change has always been a thorn in my side. Time to shut er down! To all the people I told that it changes on Sunday, giving us a new time on Monday…sorry about that. First off, I have been a day ahead all week. In the USA, we were an hour behind the time here at home. I didn’t change my car time, so driving an hour to the border was like no time passed at all. At home my bedroom clock had already gone ahead an hour?? So I looked up the time change and it said Sunday March 10th at 2am. My brain retained it changes Sunday. Two am is Sunday. Even though it has always changed on Saturday night, I was convinced I had it wrong. I mean I could be, it used to change at the end of March and the end of October, but here we are!

When I got up this am, my phone said 7:30. I got my coffee and went to my computer and it said 8:45. I checked my phone again, 7:45. I picked it up to text the world for answers and when I unlocked it, boom an hour ahead. I am sitting in a time warp. Already confused on the day, March hasn’t picked a season yet, and all the clocks say different times. My mom texted me, to ask what time it was, her phone hasn’t changed!!! Bahahaha! Glad to know I have company in my confusion!

Should all click together by tomorrow, I have already lost half a day. This is the same rodeo, different dance, different year. One of my kids needed to be picked up on a time change night. I wasn’t sure if I needed to go an hour earlier or later. They say they are going to get rid of daylight savings, some places already have. I would be okay with that! For now, I will enjoy the sun being up, when I get up, and the sun setting later in the day. Last night it set by 6:30, so tonight 7:30? Nice! Maybe tomorrow will be summer? Maybe I will go back to bed…

Any winter trip we have done, is usually arranged 3 months ahead. This one, we were on the fence and it was decided with less than 20 days to arrange. That is about as spontaneous as we can get nowadays. Vigorous planning and an immense network of people helping with the details at home. I choked on the cookies! Hubby asked for them and got me started. It was never about the destination, just the journey. Phones off, feet up, being a couple.

The year we got married, we attended a charity event. We offered to go through the Niagara region and pick up all the wine for the event. It was an extremely hot and humid day. We did a detour to the falls and ended up running through landscaping sprinklers. It is one of my favourite memories, all the tourists hustling to see the falls and sights, and just us running through sprinklers, drenched and laughing. That is how I see us, creating our own fun, wherever we are.

We have swam underwater caves in Mexico, drove a jeep and speed boat in Dominican, a double decker bus in Cuba, a buggy ride through Central Park, seen the Grand Canyon, slots in Vegas and now to the tip of the southern states. All fabulous, but what do we talk about? We talk about the Uber driver and his story, the bank tellers little expresso cups on their break, roosters on a beach, the toddler riding her parent’s suitcase, the CSI badge for Larry. Time well wasted. Times that are off the cuff. Whatever you have, enjoy it! I asked hubby what was his favourite part of the trip, he replied, “Being with you.”

So many topics force us to look at ourselves through a magnifying glass. It is so easy to see our failures, sore spots, lack lustre life, dependencies. If you try, you will see more. You are definitely more than these things! No one should rob you of your self worth, including yourself. It is different for everyone. Do you get your value from your job, relationships, body image? Is your view distorted, damaged, skewed?

We are only human, and we can settle into our roles in life. We can live in that role and feel no fault. You can be on top of your game and on track. It is the hurdles and divisions in the path that set people back. For some of us one step at a time is survival. Don’t become too hyper focused on the steps, you could look up and be in a totally different setting, even lost in this neck of the woods. The best navigators need a compass, map or guide. In survivalists shows, there is still a camera man. True survivalists go it alone until they can’t. “I just want to live on an island alone, with no internet and no people.” You hear that type of thing all the time. Forever?

You need to navigate the world and the people. I could go to that island for a week once a month, but even being so far back in the woods, you still gotta come out to hunt. If you still haven’t learned to walk away from toxicity in your life, if you are still uncomfortable saying no, start there. “ I am so tired of all the negative people.” Change your people, select things and environments that make you happy. I love libraries, old buildings, bridges, history, and nature. I don’t watch the news or science fi, I have no interest in going to Alaska, or sitting on an island alone forever. Live and be happy.

March is here, it is a leap year, the weather is quite a trip. The snow blower, may have been used three times this winter, that is a blessing. The school year had maybe three storm days, also a gift. Mother Nature melted all the snow and warmed up in two days. Flooding came and went, with the roads. Then the temperature dipped to minus 27 with the windchill, the next day. I thought I had hot and cold flashes!

I wonder what season we will get tomorrow? I decided to match the weather with a spa visit. Thermal therapy, steam sauna, ice bucket, walk outside in the minus temps to the hot pool, repeat. Now that is the way to enjoy temperature fluctuations. Loved it! Perfect way to start vacay! I would like to have spring on time and an extended summer, warm and dry. Last summer was filled with lots of rain and one or two weeks of crazy hot weather. Had a blast, harder to plan.

I got through the winter, no snow tires. I didn’t go out much. March has just started, I won’t hold my breath. I am not really a fan of March, too many false starts to better weather. We shall see! I just want to pack up the parka and snow pants…I want to wash the salt off my vehicle, I want to be done with static. My hair clinging to my face after the hat comes off, and sticking to the chap stick on my lips that I can’t go without. It doesn’t have to be ninety degrees, above 70 would be a start. Saying it makes me smile. At least I can visualize it coming, some winters seem never ending. This one I feel it coming to an end. Could be just wishful thinking, but considering how winter makes me feel, I will take the upside. Better days are coming!.

In our neighbourhood, most of us are known for hubby. He is the social butterfly, he is kinda like Crocodile Dundee, if he doesn’t know you, he will. My son, although homebound with his blindness, he is pretty well known own in his medical community. The medical staff that we are associated with, know him pretty well. With his condition, he is sunshine in these offices. A chorus of hellos call out upon arrival, it’s kinda like Norm, in the sitcom, “Cheers.” I have been told, he is kind of a big deal. Blindness, after twenty seven years of sight is a gut punch. He meets it with a great attitude, most of the time.

Today is the dentist, here he is also well received. Personal notes and cards arrive to the house on all the occasions. I am terrified of the dentist, he is the best patient. Everyone knows his name, he knows all the things, no better time to listen, lying in a chair, with your mouth open. The chit chat and laughter coming from his visit makes my day. I can only imagine what it does for his day, he doesn’t get that much people time, besides the fam.

I will take the win, happy is happy. What a great day to get out of the house too, it is lovely outside. Who knew that the dentist would be such a spirit building exercise. I was going to run a few errands, but I just want to stay and bask in the laughter I can hear. Almost on cue, while we chatted with reception before leaving, he received an early Easter gift… my heart♥️♥️

I thought it was bizarre to think that 20 years ago, is no longer in the 80’s. Today my granddaughter turns twelve and that blows me away, and tomorrow my great goddaughter turns three! We just have no control over time. We do have control over what we do with it. No moments should be wasted. Do not put off until tomorrow, what you can do today could be no farther from the truth. Git er done. My list is large, I could write my own doers and dreamers guide. The aim is for more doing.

The to do list is out the window, skip the meaningless day to day garbage. Live! I could clean till I was blue in the face, project my butt off, go big. The bucket list needs to get off the paper! I have crossed off some goodies, but I am always adding more, why not? You need to be at the ready to expand your limits. Launch into goodness, stretch beyond imagination. It must be the mild weather that has me itching to go big or go home.

One sour weather day will calm me down, but I rather enjoy the glimpse into better stuff. I have had the mid morning sleep interruption again, my brain is firing up with all the passion to go forth and do. At three in the morning, it does not serve the purpose! This girl needs sleep. Don’t forget to “Do!” If doing is not your thing, that is fine too. Being happy is the goal. Just be sure you are enjoying your life, whatever that looks like to you.

The full moon was sensational this week, of course I love all things nature. I will never stop chasing rainbows, lightening, sunrises and sunsets. I do see things with my rose coloured glasses more now, than ever before. Sometimes when everything aligns in your world, you can only feel up. People can give this to you too, which I have never looked for before. Solo is good, I am always comfortable in silence, it has never bothered me. My hope is that those that have mastered people, can also master being alone and vice versa. I think it rounds us out being part of community and enjoying solace.

I was always a people watcher, interactions and behaviour fascinates me. Authentic people being themselves without fear of judgement, radiating confidence. I strive for that. It is sad to see people holding back, I was one of those people and I suppose the latter comes with age. The common, “ We should do this more often.” Why aren’t we? Life is busy, it will never be unbusy. It usually happens all at once. Nothing for days, and life just fills your plate with more than one thing. My phone won’t ring for months and then someone is at the door, while the phone rings and someone is in the driveway. Take your opportunities, I used to hate planning in advance for this reason. Don’t hold out, just do it. If you can’t when it comes, just tweak it. You don’t have to be defined by a date, remember no deadlines. Just put it into a time frame, less pressure.

Life happens, you charter the voyage. Hop on the train and go, you are the rule maker, you set the schedule. I wish I had of… you still can! You don’t get to plan your death, but you sure can live life. Do all the things, always! If you don’t want to, then own that too. You know you, make you happy.