Me Zero

I have joined Mother Nature in her indecision. I am in between exhaustion and full tilt. If you burn the candle from both ends it eventually meets in the middle. I think I have melted. Between work and the rest of the day I am running on empty. Way past the low fuel sign, not a kilometer left of gas at the end of any given day. The train is moving and I have to keep going or at least hang on.

This is my birthday month, I implemented the month a few years back. One day doesn’t fit for me, I take the whole month as my own. It is easier to find joy when it is nice out. It feels energizing when it is warm. Today I didn’t do anything after work, but that was necessary. Recharge the battery or fill up the tank, whichever it is, a reset. The rest of the month is pretty full right now. Tired is one thing, exhausted is another. I stopped at my son’s with some Costco items, since I have a membership. The child can read me like a book. He made me come in, sit down and eat a piece of cake before I dashed away again on some other mission. I did grumble, but I sure felt better afterwards.

I made a self care checklist again, falling back and taking myself off the priority list is so easy to do. Gardening is on the list along with soup, bubble bath, beach and reading. I don’t need grand things to be happy. I am kind of glad the weather isn’t perfect yet. I don’t really feel ready to enjoy it. The list of things to do is longer than my leg. I am trying not to give too much hype to summer, still have over a month to wait. Finding fun in spring is the goal right now!